Omg I’m spiraling so hard it seems like it started like all of a sudden and now I’m like deep in the spiral… my life is too much
i wanna start using tumblr again even though 2/3 of my blogs got flagged as inappropriate or whatever even though they literally dont post porn or whatever tumblr has a vendetta against now
Personal garbage rant cw: relationships drugs
But 2019 off to a rocky start Iβm using hard drugs a lot again because I just found out my ex who dumped me over the summer is dating someone else else.. whoβs also an escort and that sent me into a spiral
I woke up and drank 4 beers immediately because I couldnβt escape my thoughts about my ex and about how Iβm always dumped and always just some girl to hook up with but as a tranny who does what I do for a living Iβm never relationship or even romance material.. just scraped my old tina pipes and got pretty high from smoking what I scraped and I got some oxy k and xan and adderall to get me through the rest of the day
I was feeling so much better but then when they told me theyβre dating someone new, after they dumped me and Iβm still so fucking alone I just had to stay high..
Im going to try to work a lot because my career as a god damn prostitute is the only thing I have going well for me right now, at least I can make tons of money and everytime my ex pops into my head I can just think about how much money I made on my own and how successful I can be as an individual
Sucks though after falling in love I now feel incomplete with out itβ¦ I donβt know if I feel lucky I at least experienced the most beautiful good feeling one can feel or if Iβd be better off not knowing and could be single in peace
Oh well at least I can get high out of my mind and turn some tricks
